...in my college education.
While reflecting on my college "career", the chapter of my life I am just now ending, a couple weeks ago I came to the conclusion that parts of who I was (and who I still am) have faded away. This chapter is largely defined by the bumps I've encountered along the way; first, a worsening in my allergic reactions, then transferring school not once but several times, moving to a new home in a different town, learning that my mother's physical problems would become disabilities leading to her early retirement... I seek not to blame the fading away on these experiences, but to accept what has been part of my past so that I can move on and change the future.
During college, though, I became engrossed by the obstacles that perhaps some people would just stumble upon before moving forward. Rather than becoming part of the world I was in, and rather than truly emerging with it I believe that I stuck to the outside and clinged too closely perhaps to what I knew - home.
I suppose you could say that transferring schools affected my involvement in extracurricular activities, but again I am not trying to blame anything on the obstacles I encountered.
Instead, now that those four and a half years are over and that chapter is closing I will be raising a glass and saying CHEERS, because it is time to begin a new chapter. A chapter filled with the things I love and the people I love most- a chapter not to be defined by the obstacles, but to be defined by experiences. I hope to engage in my community, meet new people- volunteer. Pay attention to events occurring around me. Learn more about fashion, cooking, baking, world affairs... experiment, figure out what I like. Figure out what I don't like. Figure out where I belong in society...
I believe that everything happens for a reason and given the obstacles I have encountered throughout my college experience I believe now I am ready for a re-birth. I am the most independent I have ever been - I am more responsible now for my future than I have ever been.
Who I am, and who I will become is up to me.